I’ve realized this year, I do not need a reason to be happy.
Any little thing is enough. Any big thing is enough. The sun. A nice cleansing breath. A good nap. My loved ones. The color of my nails. Someone else’s laugh. I don’t have to feel how I’m expected to feel.
I don’t have to feel how I usually feel or how I used to feel. Happiness doesn’t have to be a smile, although it often is. It can be a quiet, knowing peace with what is right now.
We must follow our intuition. We saw our paths before we were even born & know it better than any other person. But we must be cautious of our fears and our ego, they are not intuition. Intuition is the voice that existed before we existed, the voice of ancestors and angels, the voice of God.
You have convinced yourself that your journey is too trivial for destiny. But you cannot deny the electricity that runs down your spine when you take one half step towards what feels like Purpose. That is the only proof you need. The alignment of your intention and your purpose is destiny at work. Go for it!
I just wish we could love and understand each other. But that’s almost wishing we were different people (There’s a song in that). I’m still grieving, and it’s difficult for me to keep saying to myself, “It’s for the best,” when so many parts of me reject that idea, the finality and dismissiveness of that. But I can’t fight or be in denial either of what is. This is. And that’s the answer. To be more present, to just be grateful. I am thankful for the universe conspiring to teach me, even the hard lessons.
I am love.